I suppose a Blog should be more consistent.  I know that a lot of people who Blog do this very regularly.  Unfortunately, with my condition there is a lot of injuries and time that gets spent in recovery.  Right now I have been really facing the Unknown about my condition.  The Dr.'s that I have seen still can't control the seizures.  More medication, different medication, higher doses of medication.  Then to find out more about the types of seizures that I am having.  Yes, there are several types; and I seem to be having multiple types of seizures.  The Unknown, waking up after a seizure, loosing time, wondering when the next one will happen; wondering if the next one will cause another serious injury or cause a stroke.  It is a hard life to lead when you face this uncertainty.  Then, to be a shut in....you spend a great amount of time having the chance to think about this; in between all the doctor visits.  Just try to have friends; have a seizure in front of them....you will surely not be invited back to their dinner party.  A seizure really scares people away.  I don't blame them.  But it becomes very lonely, quite, and in your own thoughts about your seizures and when the next one will arise out of the blue.  I try very hard to keep some sense of normality in my life, give myself a schedule and chores to do each day.  Most of the time, I don't finish my list, but as a shut in; you have to try hard to not to focus on your pain, on this unknown.  Otherwise, it will consume you.  So, I try to focus on the positive.  I am here!  I celebrated my 40th birthday, which I wasn't sure that I would be able too.  I have a very supportive family.  Another day allows me to try to give more information to the Doctors to help me and the chance to spend time with those I love.  "There is nothing to fear, except fear itself".  I try not to live in the fear of the unknown and take each day as a blessing.